In last 10 months of freelancing, this past month has been the slowest since beginning full time. With that, my mind descended into a slow flurry: how come new clients aren't coming in? is my work not good enough? was I just getting work on dumb luck?
In the midst of my panic, I started reading "The Ego is the Enemy" by Ryan Holiday. I found a couple gems in the book:
I've accomplished a few things and what I've risked is thinking that I've actually accomplished more than I have. In this bit of progress, I've felt entitled to having more (ie: more clients, better projects, etc.). When in reality, my expectations are probably out of alignment with my reality.
I can always rely on some Debbie Millman wisdom to put me back into place. As she puts it:
It's a humbling and encouraging reminder. Definitely watch her whole talk.
This past week has been a re-shift to putting my head down and getting back into the work. To put all the unnecessary thoughts aside and focus on doing what I really really like to do - make films.